Well, it has been a while since I posted anything on this site and I guess I should explain why. Some of it was due to the usual chaos of the holidays and having my Mother come to visit (the first time she had seen me since my diagnosis) and some of it was due to my becoming ill and feeling quite weak. Anyhow, I am now back in form with several chemotherapy sessions under my belt and would like to share some of the "breakthrough moments" I have experienced.
For the first time in the past decade the Christmas holiday season really meant something to me this last year. Not to sound all "Hallmark greeting card" or anything, but as people always say, going through an experience like this really forces you to re-evaluate your life and helps to put things in proper perspective. Previously, I would work my ass off during the holiday season because in my line of work it is a busy time and one can make a lot of money. I would always be stressed out trying to fit in time for loved ones and visiting family. It's not that I didn't want to spend time with them but somehow I didn't prioritize them thinking that I could do it all. And every year I would end up mad and stressed out that I, in fact, could not do it all. So for the first time in this millennium I actually made sure to work less and plan the time I would have to spend with friends and family. Though it wasn't perfect this year was the most enjoyable holiday I can remember for a long time. Maybe it was due to my improved outlook since being diagnosed with cancer, and maybe it was due to my family's changed attitude as well. Whatever the case we all had a wonderful time relaxing together where in years prior we would all be rushing about from one place to another. This year we actually took the time to just be together. And I don't think this would have just happened on it's own without my being diagnosed with cancer.
I have a few more breakthrough moments I wanted to share but I think I'll have to save those for later when I can properly flesh them out. I would like to mention however that it is interesting when seen through the proper perspective how one may find positive effects from what is largely considered to be a negative situation. I just need to remind myself of that fact.
